A Weekend I never thought would get here

So, this week has flown by! It's Friday now and 5 weeks until I head out for spring break. Yea, that leads me to 11-13 for the year before I return home. A WHOLE year in England! I thought I was never going to come home or see the light at the end of the tunnel. I see it thought, and it's scary. I miss everyone terribly (and even cried twice yeterday from wanting to see some people.) It's hard though, I love it here. I love my team. I love the ministry. I love the UK staff. I love my church. I love my friends. I love what the Lord has shown me. And I love being a part of what He is doing here. I've met some of the best people and I can't believe there is a day I'll have to say goodbye to them. Man, just thinking about it brings tears to my eyes.

I had some difficulties the beginning of this week just sorting through some motivations and attitudes of my hearts. It was extremely hard to be motivated in "working", but I suked it up and the Lord blessed it. I kept going this week and even hit some more speed bumps. It's ok though. I met with Jenny and her friend was with her. I was reminded of my calling as a Christian, not a missionary. It was so refreshing and enjoyable to have a normal conversation and talk about what the Lord has been doing in my life. The best part, that's what every conversation should look like. The problem, I separate my work from my normal life. It's all one and belongs to the Lord. It's not really so much about what I'm doing as who I am serving. It's something I tend to forget, but something I long to be more true in my life.

REWIND
Yesterday, was probably one of the most emotional days for me and also the best day for me on STINT. I was ripped to the core of some lies I have in my belief system and also humbled to bring them before some of the dearest people in my life. After spending half of my day in tears, I had some of the best time with Jesus I have ever had. It was so cleansing to rid myself of the crap in my life and be absorbed by the love of Christ. I have tasted a small glimpse of His unconditional love and long for a deep satisfaction that reaches the inner blood of my bones...